wtf cali?

i have to not be funny here so it can be very clear how very mad i am about california passing prop. 8. i know that two other states passed something similar (i'm looking at you arizona. i'd look at florida too, but they get a pass for going back to blue), and i know that i can direct a lot of my anger at arkansas for passing their ballot measure banning gay couples from adopting children, but honestly, i expected it from those states, so california gets my anger. after that awesome day earlier in the year, when thousands of couples learned they'd be given a basic right, and there was general glee all around, this was not even something that i considered had the possibility of passing. that is how blown away i am.

i am so frustrated that this country can take a huge step forward and back at the exact same time. same sex lovin' is nothing new. it's been around as long as people have been around. you guys know i've gotten incensed about this before, but that had to do with people (poorly) acting on their personal prejudices. this is different. this is official.

i'm frustrated that two people who love each other can't get married. i'm frustrated that a union between two members of the same sex is called 'gay marriage' instead of just 'marriage'. i'm frustrated at the people that say that allowing marriage between two people of the same sex ruins the sanctity of marriage. i come from three broken homes...there is nothing sacred about that. don't tell me marriage between a man and a woman is sacred and dismiss the love between two men or two women. i just can't believe that this is actually still an issue. i can't wrap my head around it. we don't choose who we love. we are all just people. don't tell me "what next? marrying goats?!?!" because that's a dumb argument. don't tell me it goes against your religion because that means you are just forcing your religion on others and that is not what this country is about. and don't fucking tell me that this group of tax-paying citizens is banned from the one thing everyone should be able to take for granted. i don't want to hear this "marriage is between a man and a woman." according to who? you want to take it to the bible? because that is all kinds of effed up, especially in a country like this.

it breaks my heart that so many people were given this right--and gladly exercised it in the last few months--all to see it just taken away. and it breaks my heart to think about how long this might last.